i failed math. surprise, surprise.
cant say i didn expect worse but still feels awful as hell.
i dont know why i keep not doing well for math. WHY?!
not like i didnt study. i did study. and still it's like this.
how to tell my mummy :/
i bet mr chiang is so disappointed in me. ok maybe he wasnt disappointed i mean i've always been around there. bwehhhhhhhh dear life, you suck.

watched Gattaca. but nt finished yet. Ethan Hawke is Hawt. HAHAHAHA :D
Had chem test after school. i wiated for Rita Ong for like 1/2 hour. i think i called her like >10. so mr chiang saw me like still waiting after so long and kindly helped me look for rita ong turns out shes in staff room.

now tell me what is the point of a telephone. what.

chem tests. was not as okay as i hoped it to be. because i totally forgot all about oxidation states. :/ blehhhh. i like did the paper alone cos mrs ong ha dto go for her CCA. so like uhh no one will know even if i had cheated. but of cos i dint :DDD but it is so distracting with all the npcc commands and whatever wierd orchestra sounds.

please please please. let me pass my other subjects. i'll trade like my hello kitty stuff. pleaseeeeeee.

Lesson number one: Money makes the world go so round

something i had learnt long ago but never really gone right down to it. now its so bloody damn clear. its so tiring to see my mum being so tired. it hurts to know that i cant do what i want. hurts to know that i'll never know when we'll get better. my sweet sixteen...uhh not so sweet anymore. but its okay elaine, you've gotta learn that now's not the time for parties and presents. you cant even feed yourself for christs sake. somehow i gotta stop wanting things. i have to. i am so freakin miserable for what i am deprived of. S T O P.