i cannot believe i'm about to leave Nanyang real soon
the feeling of -omg its my graduation tmr- hasn't sinked in yet idk whyyyy
really seems like it was just yesterday that i entered NY :/

went macs/island creamery with weiqing valerie cheryl gwen licheng and bella.
which made me quite sad after, cos i dont think we'll be able to meet up like this anymore after grad. even if have, we wont be in hongzi anymore ]:

everyones going to the same place anw..'
but its different! its Hwachong, not Nanyang ]:

ahwells i shall treasure my last day in school tmr. i shall make my bestest ever jelly for class breakfast and finish up my letters to everyone [:
and prepare tissue for mass flooding

I'm not just one of those girls
its beneath me
so dont treat me like anybody else
that's unworthy



nate and jenny?!


3 moredays to graduation
7 more days to HCL 'O's
13 more days till sunrise in San Francisco
Hang on!

BORED.!
im suppose to study for 'O's like everyone else butt i cant seem to get my brain working. blehhh.
my day is either like watch BoA or read my forgotten issues of Bazaar or watch prison break or watch teevee. okto is like a better version of kids central. much better. they brought back Are You Afraid of the Dark and co. YAY hope they have bear in the big blue house tooo. oh and they have hannah montana yay! hopefully all the old cartoons and nice programmes cos i think our generation's teevee is nicer than now's. HAHAH.

slightly more than 2 weeks to US. but some how i'm not as hyped up as i'm suppose to be. maybe because i realise there isnt any JUICY in Gilroy. shitzzzz. now theres hardly anything that is affordable. BOOHOOOO!



Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

words

so powerful, so hurting

i have like 4 school days left. the last few days of being in nanyang!
i know like all of us will be going to the same place. but it feels different. i wanna graduate from NY but at the same time i know i'll miss it like shit. and it feels so weird to be going to JC! weird to change uniform after 10 years! i think i'm gna miss hongzi like shit too. blehhhh.

songs are like painkillers. thank god theres BoA.

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it



涙
だけが
素直に無いている
また会えば笑えるように

omgawd its over totally over. i am going to hwachong though i dont know if i am able to take 4H2s but who cares i only wish to go over anw. bought HC uniform tday. the collar is damn hard like cardboard. i dun really like it ]: like so stuffy and restrictive. i cant believe i'm going to change uniform after 10 years. so weirddd hahaha d:

the bus driver is so irritating today. just because someone's poor dosent mean they steal or cheat lor. effer. so insulting lah pls. ]: when i get down somemore dun open door wth.

i have the first few epis of Heroes S3 cant wait to wtach it =DDDDD

TODAYY got back CHI and LA.

totally hated my chinese marks. the word is KANA SAI. im so disappounted in myself! wth happen man. what happen to being good in chinese. i even feel abit bad to ah beng for thinking that i will at least get A2. blehh. i suck.

ahwells at least i still have my LA. its not as spectacular as those 2 sitting on my left and right. but i think i am happy. ok not quite. could've done much better with compre. but ahwells it saved my life. clap clap.

oh, and this morning ms Tan came to find me during assembly and told me to look for her during break.
honestly, i think i had a momentarily heart failure. i know what they mean when you haff xin li de yi kuai shi tou HAHAH.
i seriously thought she was going to talk to me about my marks and tell me i have to retain!
then wlaooooo. its about US trip. loseerrrr.

HAHAHA d:

tmr is gna be Awful. with a capital A. IH MATH PHYSICS. not one am i good at. in fact i suck at all of em! blehhh ]: tr is so my D-Day. it has a total reign over my becoming a HC student, then i can decide whether to buy uniform on friday. LOL.

i miss yesterday. playing Wii at Val's house is so fun! plus i get to wtach my LOTR ROTK. YAHOOOOOOOOO d:

annnnd i am so sick and tired of being a walking cautionary tale: PUT SUNBLOCK OR END UP LIKE ELAINE! swobs. it is so damn pain. haha i bet everyone was shock to see my skin. it is sooo badd.
someone shoot me if i evuh go sentosa without an inch of sunblock all over my bare skin.

i think i need to be nicer to my brother. i mean he is like the best elder brother anyone can have.
i mean...
who actually cooks for you? damn nice food summore. like stingray and curry and pasta and butter prawn blah blah and midnight sandwiches.
and helps you dl anything you ask him to.
and still helps you with math qns when you are so pek chek.
and spread his love of rock music to you so that ppl know that i ahve basic education in rock music.
and scolds you when you really needed it and its cos he cares.
come to fetch you from the bus stop when it's raining. even though he totally should have gotten 2 umbrellas -.-
and many many more i cant remember all right now.
and the biggest reason is that he saved me from being penniless on my US trip [:

so..sometimes i think God really isnt too bad to me. he took my dad away and nothing can ever replace that loss but at least he gave me great brother who is always responsible and reliable. ok besides the whole waking me up at 5am thing.

i am not cheesy at all. i am expressing my gartitude manzxzx. who know what might happen tmr. literally kay cos if i rly fail i am prepared to tiaolouzisha.

i slept till 2pm. could have been later but my mum woke me up early to go tuh church. bleehh. im too busy playing im not resting.

finished The Undomestic Goddess in an hour. whoots i am fast i am fast d:

im lacking in things to watch. im waiting for Gossip Girl ep7 and Hot Shot ep13 to come so currently im watching Prison Break S3. blehh im still at epi2 and im pretty bored. hope it will get exciting real soon, i know it will its PB afterall [:

cant wiat for the LOTR marathon tmr!

freedom suits me just right.


i knew it long ago. i knew, i knew. so why am i still not over it? its not anyone's fault i guess. so i cant blame anyone. but it still makes me feel unimportant. maybe we just dont click. we dont suit each other well enough. i sound so childish but you prefer them dont you? you dont have as much as when you're with me. but dont do this alright i'll be left with nth if you leave me on my own.

shucks i hope im pmsing.

ITS

FINALLY

OUTT!





CAN

YOU

SAY

COOL?



omgawd i love my life

thats why i love us <3

YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

lifee's been wonderful after exams! i should be enjoying i might die when when results get back next week :/ bleh didnt screammm after math ended. was too disappointed with myself to be happy. but ahwells its OVUHHHHHHHHH BABY!

went out after exams with 12minus2 to eat at hong kong cafe. we thought 10 people was alrdy alot. but after eating halfway a group of 23 came in. HAHAHA.
annd a stupid thing happened. TLC refused to cross the road to taka when the green man was flashing. i repeat GREEN MAN. and it was like 30s left. then me and qing wanted cross then road then the others didnt follow, so me and qing run halfway then she turned back WALAO super diu lian lah i bet everyone across the road was laughing man. tsk

then me gwen rina and licheng stayed back to watch CONNECTED! twas fabbie <3 definitely must watch if ya havent. it was so exciting i kep shaking my legs then now pain kanasai. hahahah. im so losserrr d: so watch watch watch like best show this year after Dark Knight so far. met jodie&co. and melwee&co. and may other&co. hahaha spore is smalll.

***

FRIDAY,
the long awaited SENTOSA DAY!

went siloso beach. and no i didnt wear my bikini. saddd. its okay im still as sexayye as evuh rigghht! HAHAHA d: as a result... i am super burnt like red all over. i think i look like crab. i didnt know it was this bad till i came home. and i realise ohmygawd. i have ugly tan lines like the shape of my halter. blehh suck suck suck. damn painnn ]: and only I am sunburnnt! unfairrr! i think i have like too little melanin. or isit too much? whatever. i hate this. i am suppose to be like the fairest always. now i am bloodyhell tanned. shitzz

but twas quite fun. splashed water, played vball, get pesterred by fat ppl to play vball, played touch rugby for like 2 times, played captains ball and myside never wins, attempted to build sandcastle, fell into water, pointed out i was red and blotchy, went to bathe, went back vivo, ate at kopitiam, walk around, realise out of touch of the real world for too long, went home.

<3

TODAYYE!

me rensyn and sammie met up with sixuannie. wanted to kbox. but tupid xuan dun let me. rensyn thinks im gna use my act cute voice to sing and sam is gna read her book . so... i didnt get wish ]: ]: ]:

ahwells. twas nice and fun still. we talked like the whole wayy. excluding the walking ard in heeren and taka. just talking is niceee. miss sixuannie like mad! how nice if she comes HC nxt year ]: i feel so at ease to be with them. so feels great. cept that xuannie kept hitting all my sunburnt parts -.-

cant wait for tzeqing to be back so we can go out again again! <3


and whythehhell isnt BOATheFaceLiveTour OUT? i've been checking like since last month and it isnt out. wth! they are depriving me of my oxygen!

shall update photos when ppl send me =D

ging vals hse on mon to catch LOTR trilogy marathon. but i dun think we can finish cos hafta go US trip briefing. ahwells.

I FEEL FREEEE

ok this post is totaly redundant but i am very pissed now because i went to someones blog and saw something that made me super super super angry so i am here to swear at people. please dont read it might spoil my image. HAHAHAHA.


mother effer. nobody ask you to like her right. and what is with those criticisms? i cant believe you cant see the hard work shes been through to put up the whole show, say until like its some crap show. she is the most hardworking person ever. you dont know her enough to say those thing so STFU. F you because you like her for the wrong reasons and you are not someone who truly like her. the show to me or to any other fan i know was a great one. including non fans actually. goes to show your good taste huh. so embarassing and humiliating to know that we like the same person. oh wait you dont. you phoney biatch.


all right blogging does help. i feel much better after punching my keyboard.

dont judge me, judge for yourselves.

lousy?

1 more bloody paper and i am on my road to F R E E D O M. =DDDD YAYYYE

ok minus the YAYYE. i screwed like 12345678 subjects already. i dont think i will make it to hwachong. well if i dont i shall go and die.

im only looking forward to marking days and US trip if i dont fail my MSG. SENTOSA ON FRI WHOOOTS! PLEASE PLEASE MENSY DONT COME NOW!!! wait until after the 22nd =D


i have so many things to do! so many things that i have been deprived off. including excercise! i very sad. i realise my i can pinch my stomach, i never could now i can!! this is horrible!!!



I NEED KILLER ABS!





this is so funny! the little angmoh boy sang come on over with BoA hahaha