blehh im sad
i was trashy at MAD open class.
so i consoled myself by spamming Nobody's Perfect while i sulk back home.
ahwells.

lets recall the happy times! =D
kopped from the photos in qing's facebook =D

DUCK TOUR!


EA with some motorcycle used for demonstration


EA ;D


memorable first walk near Berkeley


outside some tar place which is very old. got methane gas bubbling somemore


the best place to work in


Stanford Uni. very pwetty architectures and murals. all filled with motherly love


past a bakery at Fisherman's Wharf


SPONGEBOB AND CURIOUS GEORGE AT UNI STUDIOS


SIMPSONS!! eee but not full family. homer is so cute.


WITH PLUTO AT DISNEYLAND [:


GOOFY'S CAR


LOS ALTOS [high school] CONQUERORS


haha hollywood background at Uni Studios


UNIVERSAL STUDIOS


and many more but too lazy. hahaha thanks qing!

the end of my life is coming.

rant
i am soooooo fattt. i have a tummy. an actual tummy. i thought it was something i use to scare myself only, but now i actually have it. extra meat bulging out. i use to not have meat even when i sit and slouch. now i have when im standing. omfffg. i wish i just die. its the holidays. season to wear nice things. but i feel awful about my tummy. and my mum will not stop criticising how fat i've become every single day. i want my old figure back. the no fat at all with visible abs stomach. i wish someone will just shoot me. im no longer 25 inches! im like 26.5 now. shitz. now im starting to miss my volleyball trainings. it kept me slim. what shall i doooooo ]: i mean since situps does not help then what can i do. summore im going for open class tmr. omg will somebody just shoot me now. i dont wanna face the world.

hey ppl!
im back YAY ME!

its sososo great to be back home. to be able to be on my nice clean bed and hug my smeowly pillow. i think i miss my bed too much so i slept from 6am to abt 10pm. omg i fully broke my record. korkor is coming back frm macau 4am later =D cant wait for him to see what i bought for him.

Silicon Valley was pretty fun. i like all the IT company visits like google. ppl there are less than 150 feet away from food all the time, how cool is that? definitely good for ppl like mwee.

the universities were nice too. just that everytime i hear about getting scholarship and i see how small the singaporean population is that gets in i get all worried. butt whatever not like i plan to go overseas for uni.

i had alot of things to say but suddenly i dont haf anymore haha. shall blog a more precise one next time [:

12 more hours exactly!

im so excited i dont think i can sleep!

i faced a major crisis last night when i found out that i cant bring my hair straightener because the voltages are different. :OOOOOOOOOO
so luckily i wnet out early this morning to get a straightening brush phewwwwww. but hopefully it works equally well.

finally after the earlier 188 days counting down, this is The Day. well the eve of The Day. i cant believe time passes so fast and im going to see the sunrise in San Francisco real soon. abit wurried abt jetlaging and the hotel tho :/

ahwells since time passes so fast i bet i'll soon be coming back too.
but i shall enjoy my trip to the fullest while it lasts!
cantwait cantwait cantwait!

bye bye blogger. seeyou in twelve days d:

oh please god let me somehow see BoA in LA

'O's ovuh!
now i feel even free-er than after eoys yayyyy [:

so now im all about getting excited for US Silicon Valley Trip 2008! wahoooooo!
cant wait for disneyland universal studios and of course, GILROY!
nows the pre trip prep time! and i am happy because i have already gotten everything i wanted!
except for my L'oreal Lumi oil because my lousy poke of a brother use finish and refuse to buy me. so unfair lah. he was trying to get me into accepting some other lousier products. its like after he eat my sharkfin soup then want to make up using ikan bilis soup. HMPH.
so anw went walk walk and isetan to get a few stuff and yay got the mango sweater i wnated [: so PTP is completed.
oh and stupid computer disallowed me to post for so many days. finally i can log in.
so many thingys happened.
oh and guess what!
I TOOK OF MY BRACES!
GONE FOREVER!
AFTER 3 AND A HALF YEARS!
AMEN!
so now im just suppose to wear retainers]: i talk like got da she tou ]: blehh my aunties says i am pwetty now. but i dont think so lah i think just my smile is nicer becos suddenly my teeth is white hahaha. i shall smile even bigger nowww :D

class party was funnn even though not all 35 were present. but still i feel freedom. i think i become reckless with freedom. i wnet to swim even though i know i hafto take bus home. but ahwells i dont regret it. Dottys house is kewl lah. went gym room with gwennn and siyu and jasmine lol. burnt 30 calories on the treadmill but lost it after eating 1 marshmallow d:

and of course the purpose of this post is to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BoA! slightly belated due to my stupid com but hope you had the bestest 22nd birthday anyone could haff. wishing you success in your upcoming singles and albums and everything else. may you maintain your status as the prettiest person on earth and you'll always be perfect in my eyes. huaiting!

CHEERS! LOVE YOU ALWAYS, frm your no.1 fan PEIA HAHAHHAHAHA dont laugh [:






no one is cuter than you!
YOU DO PERFECT EVEN IN Wii!

today's all souls day, so went to church in the morning. the priest was using saving private ryan as an example lol. i dont like that show. i mean yea its nice and touching but i think its really stupid for everyone to die in order to save 1 person and not like he is some great person please so sad that everyone else has to sacrifice their lives to save his ass. life is so so so unfair yknow yknow?!?!

after brunch went on a 2hour to choa chu kang to visit daddys columbarium. my kor totally called it an adventure cos it was so hard to get there. but ahwells its been really really long since we visited daddy. if we could we would have gone as often as we can sometimes i wish i could just go there and just talk to my dad's column all by myself when i feel especially troubled. well of course its kinda creepy if there's very little people there but... its peaceful yay[:

i'm so glad we went out to do something as a family..its been real long since we did something tgt. was talking to my kor all the way which was pretty enriching. i like talking to my kor. he brings me back down to planet earth. even though he totally places himself in a good spotlight whenever he can. lol. i'm still troubling over my my subject combi and JC CCAs. i mean whatif whatif whatif i dont get into MAD? theres a high chance i dont. but somewhere in my heart i think i will. but i souldnt be so confident when everyone else secretly thinks i cant even though i feel i can.

so, anyhooo

went AMK Hub after cos kor wanted to check out phones at singtel. mannn like prices have not gone down]: so i think he's gna settle for samsung soul. then went to this hawker centre at jubilee to eat. mann do i miss hawker food! i ate western food though hahah but ist so worth it like 5.50 for this super huge plate. and the carrot cake and sugar cane and fishball soup was gooood. plus he place is surprisingly clean and not too noisy.i rly wanna bring my frens there but i doubt my frens would want to go explore this kinda things which is pretty sad cos i dont just wanna eat fast food or expensive diners everytime we go out. i bo lui ah! but i feel oblige to follow the majority. i mean i dont want to seem hogging something or imposing my ideals on people again. sometimes my intention is really good, but in eyes of other it just comes out wrong. which is pretty frustrating because its purely outta my character to share all my true feelings and ideas. but then i've probably learned lesson whichs tells me i should be really careful with my words and actions because you never know what others might think. white could turn black anytime. so sometimes things happen which makes me think whether there is something terribly wrong about the way i am.

came home and had a huge row with my mum. over something stupid. ok i shouldnt have raised my voice but she made me angry first! then she goes on and on about how rude i've been lately. which made me even angrier and made her even more upset. then she becomes very upset. like the angriest she has evr been with me. thats why now i'm lost and i'm talking too much because i am sad. i probably should just write her note and apologise then maybe she'll forgive me but she seems really angry. sighh i hate quarelling with family. or anyone else for that matter. cos i'll end up detesting myself and i find myself desperate to make up which makes the whole quarrel pointless.

gawd tell me if you finished this post because i think my blog is really for me to spread out my thoughts and converse with myself. it has absoslutely no entertainment value.

and this is less than a fraction of my troubles currently.
sometimes i feel that nothing ever turns out right in my life.
am i being too pessimistic? or isit PMS? or teenage angst?
idk cos i really feel like the road that i travel alwyas turns out to be the tougher one.

Post Graduation

the feeling that i'm leaving nanyang as more or less sunk in... i'm sad but not as bad as i expected.
class closue was a little disappointing, i expected a similar closure as in sec 2. but there wasnt a sit in a circle and talk and cry your heart out kind of thing. i would very much prefer that lor. i feel that i have alot of things to cry about but the feeling didnt come as strongly as in sec 2 maybe cos there wasnt msYeo who really know how to make people dig through our feelings inside and stuff and make people cry. ahwells still cried abit because of auchuinyin. that girl is always the first to cry! ohwells i'll miss your crying oujunyin! hahahah.
i expected a more heartwarming grad ceremony at night but it was like so...messy and stuff. i really wish they would play the vitamin C song and everyone sing and cry hahahaha. even after that like got so many people then all rushing home and stuff ]: plus i didnt get to hang out a little longer with the 404 peeps which is sad.
left Ny with my mum and kor with jodiefoo and family. went to this nice place to eat dinner. but the whole time the restaurant ppl kept wanting us to leave because they were closing very soon. lol.
thanks people for the grad letters. and thanks foo for the wonderful photo scrapbook you made. so nice luh i love u so much. and auchuinyin made me the hello kitty beads thing mong i must find some way to make a keychain out of it then can carry with me wherever i go [:

i will miss NY and the teachers the staff and of cos all my friends so very much. these 4 years would probably contain all the best memories and friends for all my life.